Blog Jealousy

So i just watched Julie & Julia that movie with Meryl Strepe about the cook and the woman writing a blog about cooking. It's a TRUE story and i am going to admit here and now that although i loved the movie (i was told "of course you do, you're a girl" - so i obviously recommend it to anyone with a vagina) FYI i'm going to ignore that male assumption for another ranty day so we can get to the most important part of this half bit poor excuse of a blog (sorry i didnt mean that), i suffered from some serious blog envy through out the entire movie! she wrote about cooking and she had tons and tons of followers! A god damn movie was dedicated to her! I don't want to sound ungrateful for my dedicated follower but i have to admit a little jealousy crept in, i mean her blog didn't seem so fucking great! I got irrational, and it wasn't like i could go throw a rock through her blogs window or burn her blog down! Fucking untouchable internet! I was so angry that i did something even worse, i went out and got drunk then verbally abused my blog when i got home. I said a lot of things i didn't mean and I might have been a little rough but that's what happens when you drink. I'm going to bloganger management classes now, and i really don't know when my blog will be able to trust me again, especially because this wasn't the first time. It's been a pattern, ever since i saw my sisters blog and one particular brilliant entry she did on beauty, fucking bitch. My poor blog never saw the storm coming. All I can say is that i am trying to change.