Elderly Weather

I've realized that the weather in Minnesota has made me into an old person, or a boring neighbor, or that friend of a friend you see in the supermarket, all those people that you interact with and all interesting or funny conversation seems to disappear without a trace.

I can't help but talk about the weather, to you, to my friends, family, jesus anyone that will listen. I find this a rather serious trend in most of the Minnesotan youth. The weather and its changes is not a conversation that we reserve and fall back on it is actually one of the most important discussions of the day. I have spent hours with best friends discussing the weather. Is that boring? well maybe yes it is. But I can't seem to stop. I can go from how it has changed, what it was, what it is, and what it will be, while of course remembering all the awful blizzards and snow storms of my youth.

Minnesotan winters scar you. Maybe I am dramatic but I believe that one is left emotionally and sometimes physically scarred from the coldness of our winters. And I believe that typically winter will not turn into spring/summer until it has broken your spirit and left you wishing for death. Only then will the temperature maybe start rising. Now that you know how I feel about the cold I will tell you that I should have been kissing the ground I was crying and whining on last week because at least it was hot and sunny. now BOOM cold, windy, brisk, and I didn't think I could be more upset.

Something about huddling yourself in lots of blanket and bundling while scowling helps you be even more resentful towards.......everything (not that I needed the extra help). I think its something about the physical positioning of your body, all hunched over and protective, like a really pissed off hunch-back witch.

Even though it wasn't cold in the bar last night I felt my body returning to this position as I congratulated my friend on his move out of the country. He had saved the money, bought his ticket, and was ready to fly out of here. And yep! just like you, I thought the only logical thing. This is sooooooooooo NOT fair. How dare he work towards something with hard work and accomplish it. God so not fair. I mean common! just cause I haven't saved any money, don't have a job or a license that means i have to like live in it, reap what I sow kinda shit? nuh-uh no way, way not fair! God i hate the cold weather.